01/10/07 - Un/fulfilling «

Posted by: tranquillullaby | October 1, 2007

01/10/07 - Un/fulfilling

It’s so great coming back and seeing people commenting to my posts. ;o; (I replied to them all, btw! Thank you so much!)

The weekend was both fulfilling and unfulfilling. It cannot be described. It started off pretty horrible, actually. I found out my brother’s best friend, who was taking anti-depression pills (I had spoken to him before, he was pretty depressed, but he was a really nice guy, and good to talk to…) drank a few cases of beer, overdosed on his anti-depression pills, took a bunch of Gravol, and jumped out a third story window.
He’s alright, but… he’s going to rehab and getting some help. So much crazy stuff is happening, it must seem like I’m lying about it all now. I just can’t believe, only a little while ago, I saw him, and how something so drastic could happen in such a short amount of time…
Crazy things are happening.

Next… I went over to Ichi’s which also started awkwardly. I found out he got a lap dance, (he told me he never would, because it seemed so fake) from at the strip bar with Ian, his roommate. Of course, I’m not saying he can’t do it (I think?), but I can’t help but be upset! ;_; He payed $20.00 for it-! I feel a little insulted… what I’m most insulted about is that he lied to me. ;o; I did get an apology out of him though, and things are alright… but I don’t know if I’ll ever get over it. I only wanted Ichi to be with me like that… T____T <—-Selfish loser. (I’d never get a guy to do that for me, though!! ;;;

I guess I’m also just upset that he’s really “living the life of a 20-year-old guy” now. It’s sad… I can’t even go into bars yet. (I’m only 17 - but I want to go to Quebec when I turn 18 because you can get into the bars there! ;;; I want to see what that’s like.)

And he even got a car a few days ago, too. It’s a 1985 Camaro… is that good? It sounds nice. It’s red with black racing stripes; it’s real snazzy. xD And a $1000 sound system for it, too-! ;;;; I want a job…. ~A~;!

Here’s something else I wanted to mention. Ian got a girlfriend, and she is immensely hot and immensely nice! ;__; Aaaagh, I want to be hot too-!! Well, maybe just skinnier? ;;;; His girlfriend, Krystlen, (such a beautiful name, too?!) is about 15 pounds lighter than be… and I’ll be honest, I am about 130lbs. ~o~; That’s not really really big, but, I’m pretty obbsessed when it comes to my weight, so whenever I see cute Anime girls, or skinny models on Ichi’s wall, I say, “…I want to be that too - I could look that nice, I could! ;__;”

As for photos… I didn’t get any this weekend because my camera died, but I will post some from a previous weekend. That’s alright.. right? x3;

This is just something I took a few days ago ~~by myself~~. It’s actually the most dynamic facial expression and pose I’d ever done in a photo. =A= (..Probably because I was alone)

I like pictures of Ichi with out expression, especially when he’s sleeping-! So… yeah.

This is Ian, the one aspiring to be an actor. He’s also very good at singing + guitar. I really envy his music/acting skills. ;___; (Yes, I take boring pictures)

..It’s Ian again :’D Fufufu…

This is my breakfast one morning. The house lacked food, so I just put raspberry jam mixed with whip cream on cinnamonEggos… yummy… o__o;~

And this is the only picture I have of Ichi and I. It isn’t a good picture, but I treasure it a lot. Ehehe, I told him a few days, ago, “I’ve started blogging-!!;;;” And he said, “…so you’ve become just like 8/10 of the internet users.” …And then I broke in half. xD;

That’s all for today. So, please enjoy the songs!

Yui Sakakibara - princess
|| 5:00 || japanese || pop ||

comments: Ohh.. Yui Sakakibara’s amazing. This song relaly isn’t over-the-top, but, she can can change her voice so immensely, it’s incredible! I posted her song “Beautiful Day” once before; it was the ending to the Anime “Otome wa Boku ni Koishiteru” which was ultra upbeat and cute… and look at this. It’s all, “omg take meee uhn :’D”. It’s a new kind of turn-on, that’s what it iiiis! As for the song, it’s just… okay. I don’t really love it. xD The starting is cool, though.
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I’VE - LIA - Crystal World
|| 4:11 || japanese || pop ||

comments: Th-this song is so cute… hearing LIA sing, “feels so good, feels so fine!” doesn’t sound sexual at all. It’s so cute, it sounds like she’s talking about eating ice cream or something! (?!!) Her voice is just too cute. It’s both mature and cute, I love iiiit. And this song is so poppy and catchy, and unique. It’s pop, but it’s not too cheesy at all! :’D It’s so adorable. Recommended, it’s a good listen!
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Katou Emiri - Kenka Yohou no Jikan da yo
|| 3:44 || japanese || crackpop ||

comments: Oh… this song is just too much. x) It’s the character single song rom Kagami (the long purple haired girl) a la the very popular Anime Lucky Star. I love this song because she’s half voice-acting and half-singing a lot of the time! It’s so cuuuute. And it’s very crazy and on crack.. I want to know the lyrics. Oh, I have to learn Japanese… badly. ;_; Anyway, cute, catchy, and on crack. Enjoy!
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Angel Aki - Surrender
|| 5:22 || english || easylistening||

comments: Oh… ;____; This song is gorgeous. I just love Angela Aki’s voice and style of music. This song gets so emotional and all, I love her piano playing, I love her melodies, they’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard. ;o; What’s great about this song is the lyrics. They’re wonderful… really wonderful. I can’t explain it, it’s just too gorgeous. Highly recommended, please download!! ;3;
[Highly recommended]
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Posted in Uncategorized | Tags: angela aki, I'VE, Kagami, Katou Emiri, LIA, Lucky Star, Un/fulfilling, Yui Sakakibara

Responses

I’m always so quick to comment! Maybe it’s because I check your site everyday. It’s just part of my routine.

Sorry to hear about your brother’s friend. I don’t know anyone like that, so I don’t exactly understand.

Hmm, what should I say about Ichi’s lap dance. I’m trying to think what I would say if I had a someone like him (not using that word) and he went and did that. I dunno, I think I’d be a little bit annoyed, but he’s a guy after all. Maybe he just wanted to try it out. And I’d be more annoyed if he paid a ton of money for it. That would mean he really wanted it, don’t you think? He only spent $20, so it didn’t mean much to him. That’s what I think anyhow.

So you’re 17 and he’s 20? I don’t really care about age, myself, actually, I think I’d prefer someone older. Is it just me or are guys in high school really immature?

Wouldn’t it be nice if we were hot? I keep thinking I wanna be like that, and others I don’t. The attention would be a bit overwhelming, but I might like it.

Oh, and about the pix: we both have glasses! Yours looks like my friend Miranda’s with the brown frame. Mine are a dark brown- almost black. They used to be blue though. I liked them better that way.

The posters on your wall! I want! I can’t put up posters, cuz were renting this house. I secretly think I should though. I’ve got some nice ones. I can’t really tell, but which ones do you have? From what animes?

Oh and you and Ichi look good together. I’m jealous. Lol. One last thing, the blog comment was funny. I figured it was around that. 8/10, huh? Well, blogging is fun.
-Natalie

Check out my blog sometime. I need some comments….!

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Ocean:
Awww… :’D I feel so happy that you check. Ahh. Thank you. XD;!
I know he’s a guy and all, and that’s what guy’s do - but I’m jealous. I can’t help it. ;__;” And also said he wouldn’t do it - I don’t know… I suppose I shouldn’t have asked him not to, I guess. But it still hurts having him break his word. (A-and $20 is so much to me-!! *Has no income right now..*;;
As for my glasses, I don’t wear them often. I usually wear contacts. :’3
And! He’s not 20 just yet… on November 2nd, though. Were 2 and a half years apart. And goodness yes, high school boys are very immature. ;____; Our generation is going and going and going, down the drain… (That’s what I think anyway.)
Put up your posters! Be a rebel-!! xD Lol, jk. The visable posters in the pictures are… well, mainly my Gakuen Utopia Manabi Straight! one, and I have some prints from DA artists, a Di Gi Chara calender, some Tokyo Mew Mew ones and covers taken from shoujo-telephone magazines… but, yea! :’D
Blogging is fun! xD; I’ll go check out yours right now. <3

By: 2bfreeyumi on October 1, 2007
at 10:54 pm

…I am just at a loss for words at what Ichii did. honestly. I can kinda relate to your situation (to an extent I guess). I’m 18 and my boy (or should I say *puppy*…his name is Matt) is 19. We’ve been together for 5 years. Maybe it’s just who Ichii is, or maybe he just wanted to try it out like Nathalie said, but I would not take that from Matt (It’s not like he’d do it anyway, but… I mean guys are gonna be guys but you gotta draw the line somewhere. And as far as him lying to you about it: yeah, I’d be mad too, but maybe he was trying to protect you, not that I agree with his logic…

As for your pics/comment about being hot and weighing less: I gotta be honest I really didn’t like the pic of you alone..it seemed a little forced. HOWEVER in the one with Ichi, you look soooo pretty ^__^. And, your weight is relative to your height, remember that. I weigh 100, but I’m also pretty short.

And, YAY for Quebec! It’s so strange, me and my friends were talking about going up there (yes, for the bars…*hangs head in shame* (cause I live kinda close to the US Quebec border)…we were talking about it just last week, but we couldn’t cause my friends are in college and they left their birth certificates at home. We’re now thinking about going sometime after thanksgiving cause they would have been able to go home.
When’s your birthday? how long so you have to wait?

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Ocean:
Five years is such a long tiiime. :’D I’m happy for you~ <3
My pic seemed forced~? Aaa.. I’m sorry, maybe it was. I was having fun though. But I like the picture of Ichi and I, too; I’ll try and take more realish ones next time for sure. xD!
Lol yay Quebeeec! *Meets you there!* >3… As for me.. my birthday’s in April, (the 24th) so I’d have to wait awhile yet. T___T~
Thank you for commentingshuu…. ;u;

By: Haeleigh on October 2, 2007
at 2:28 pm

About the weight thing, I believe it is a health issue. Whatever you weigh, so long as you are healthy and happy it’s all good. Have you seen what them super models look like, it’s gross. no normal guy is attracted to that. I’m sorry about your brother’s friend. I started drinking when I was 14 and by the time I was nineteen I was drinking at work and having a case and a half every night(a case= 24 beers). I have learned to control my problem since then. Drinking must always be done responsibly. I hope he has learned that. As for Ichi, I agree you should draw the line. Just because he is a guy doesn’t mean he can’t control himself. If it bothers you I think you should let him know. I am a guy and I don’t think it’s a big deal. So it’s no problem if my girl doesn’t want me to then I won’t. Your pics are cute. I thought Ichi was japanese so I was a little surprised. You look kinda like Angela Aki. Very pretty, and great smile.

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Ocean:
Mm, some super models are gross… some are nice thought. Then again, the majority are often Photoshopped anyway. @_@;
Ah, I don’t think drinking was the problem. He was having some severe depression problems and was on medication though. Medication isn’t always great although, because it doesn’t really solve any problems, it just makes the mind cope with them better.
And Ichi knows I really don’t want him to now. So he’s not going to do it again. ^^; He said, “if I knew you were going to get this angry I never would’ve done it” and got all pouty. Ehe. So thanks
Oh, and Ichi’s real name is not Ichi. xD I just call him that. So, no, he isn’t Japanese (wah ;__; …loljk~) but I love him the way he is and all. And it’s sucha compliment to know I resemble Angela Aki-! I always looked in the mirror and thought so myself, but I was never 100% sure. I think it’s because we both have Italian backgrounds. (And large noses.. uguu..;;;
Thank you for commenting! :’D

By: Jack on October 2, 2007
at 9:55 pm

That must be really scary knowing someone that depressed O.o

I thought the legal drinking age was 18 in all of Canada. Maybe that’s the one advantage to living in Quebec XD
You should visit Montreal if you do decide to come to Quebec, it’s really nice…. but maybe I’m biased because I live there XD But it’s the most English city in Quebec. I think ^^;

I always want to lose weight too XD I wish I was 130 pounds. But then I’d be… very, very thin XD Because I’m too tall O.o

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Ocean:
I was really scared! I had talked to him once before when he was in a rather depressed state, it was awkward and kind of difficult to deal with and make him think otherwise… it’s a hard thing to understand. I feel really bad for those kinds of people.
And no. In Canada it’s 19 everywhere else - goddamn! xD; So, yeah. Thanks! I’ll look into Montreal most definitely. I’ve never been there, but… I know it’s a big city? >u> (Big cities = awesome bars-!?) Lol XD
Ohh, can you speak French as well? :3

By: Xiori on October 3, 2007
at 10:21 pm

“And no. In Canada it’s 19 everywhere else - goddamn! xD; So, yeah. Thanks! I’ll look into Montreal most definitely. I’ve never been there, but… I know it’s a big city? >u> (Big cities = awesome bars-!?) Lol XD
Ohh, can you speak French as well? :3″

I feel so uneducated about my own country XD
Yeah, I can speak french, but with a really bad accent XD You really need to know it if you live/work here though XD

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Ocean:
Oooh o.o That’s why I’m really worried about going there.. “may I have le cup de whiskey please” @_@…!?
Oh, and I just learned.. it’s 18 in Alberta too. But Quebec is closer.. so >3

By: Xiori on October 5, 2007
at 6:02 pm

Ganked Kagimin’s character single and Angela Aki! And FYI, most anime girls are too skinny and too busty. You are proportioned just right

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Ocean:
Ah, you are sweet.. :’D I guess I’m just one of those people who thinks really skinny and really busty looks good… ah, it’s terrible, I should really just accept my image and be fine with it. ;o; *Headdesk*
But thank you. >//u//<

By: jen on October 8, 2007
at 3:15 am